I have spent the last few hours laying in bed with my laptop on my chest just listening to music and thinking. I am in such a strange mood. I have been thinking a lot about my life. What I want. Who I think I am. Stuff like that. I feel so alone right now. I think about my friends and family and I realize that none of them really know me. No one knows the true me. Is it that way for everyone? There are the things that I say are important to me and then there are the things that really are. I hate that I cant tell people the things that matter to me. I feel like I always have to be what people expect of me. That is just such a cop out. Here lately I have felt so lost. I think its because I am always what people want me to be. I wish I had the strength to just be who I am, or at least who I want to be. It is funny how much I relate to music. If it wasn't for my ipod I think I would go insane. I have songs that define me. The music that means the most to me I feel like I have to keep to myself. If I let someone I care about hear it and they didn't get it then it would be like they didn’t get me. If you really ever want to know me just look at my favorite playlist. So am I messed up or does everyone feel like this?
Magnetic Fields.....All I want to know......Go listen. (we all know you wont)
