Band of Brothers

I spent the day watching Band of brothers on Bluray. I realized two things. One. Bluray and an HDTV is the only way to go. Wow it looks amazing. Two. I miss the army. Its strange. Here is this show that captures the worst that the army has to offer. War, Death, Fear, and it makes me miss the army so much. I remember the feeling I had when I graduated from AIT. I was standing there in my class A’s with a group of guys that had gone from total strangers to people I would die to protect. Its impossible to put into words the sense of pride you have standing there with your platoon. It was a time in my life where I really felt that I had a purpose and direction. I think its something that if you haven’t been through you probably wouldn’t be able to understand. Its funny how things that you go through that were so hard you look back on fondly. There is a part of me that will always be a part of Bravo 5/18. First of the 31st. 

Fear and loathing in Fayetteville

I started this blog because I felt that I needed a place to vent. Somewhere I could just let things out. Then I wound up not ever writing here. I have felt so negative lately that I just didn’t bother writing anything. To be honest lately I have just been a total wimp. I have been living in fear and self loathing. I hate where my life is at the moment and I have just been to afraid to do anything about it. I spend my life dreaming of the future and living in the past. I waste so much time and energy pouring over stupid mistakes that I have made. Its not going to be easy but I have to make a change. I can’t go on just treading water. I need to swim and not worry so much about drowning. Now if only I can get it from the page to my life. 

one more thing. Thanks for kicking me in the butt. You are a good friend.